DreVinci's Notebook

Make steel pans

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:16:31 -0400

Make steel pans

Drawing Nigh

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:08:00 -0400

I feel like my time is running out. Like my life is going to end soon.
I’ve got 48 hours until my life changes and I’m not sure if that’s a good or a bad thing.
For my entire life, I’ve never been able to predict my future past being 20 years old, and I’ve always yearned to just reach that and told myself I would be able to die peacefully. The ages past 20 never concerned me because of a lack of ambition back then, and growing up as an African-American, I had close to no role models I could look up to, to make clear to me the options I could pursue after school.
I also grew up putting a large importance on having a purpose in life. My current state of mind is that if you’re not living to make an impact on something that will remain after you’re gone, what was the point of living. As a kid, I couldn’t find that purpose, hence, I was satisfied with dying at 20.

(I wonder if my mom knew she that at 20 years old, she was halfway through her life..
I hate Mother’s Day. Constant reminders and questions.)

So I’ll be leaving for the Navy in 2 more days…

(The Internet will slowly turn into a dump for people who actively create content and those who passively view and share that content with others)

…and I feel like the world when change after boot camp. Like, nothing will be the same. I suppose everything changes but leaving for boot camp, I feel like I’m going to lack the drive to come back into the world and start over again.

(Daft Punk’s new album is amazing…)

…and there’s so many things I want to do. I wanted to go on a 10 day nature trail/campout on the 31st of May with friends, there’s a dance at my church this Friday, other friends just got into Minecraft after I goaded them for months, I also have to teach them how to be better at Heroes of Newerth so we can wreck faces and finally start queuing in the 1600s since they’re stuck in the low 1400s. And I started remodeling my kitchen and my bathroom along with my uncle and we’re about 70% finished, but I won’t be here to see the finished product. I’m going to miss my co-worker’s wedding and I’ve made it so that I’ve broken most of my close connections with people here so that I have nothing to look forward to, if I chose to come back.

So I guess at 20 years old, this will be the end of Andre, and another life is soon to begin.

thedarkchocolatedandy: malanga-coco: playstationthree: basedgq...

Mon, 06 May 2013 02:05:45 -0400

thedarkchocolatedandy:

malanga-coco:

playstationthree:

basedgqd:

Waka recording his backup

this video has changed my life

This is everything I didn’t know I needed

That must be fucking tiring!

Psych-Quotes: How To Stop Being The Caregiver In Your Relationship

Mon, 06 May 2013 02:01:18 -0400

Psych-Quotes: How To Stop Being The Caregiver In Your Relationship:

psych-quotes:

Sometimes, without even being aware of it happening, we end up acting as our partner’s caregiver. If you feel like you’re more of their parent than their partner, it’s time to make some changes. Here’s how to stop being the caregiver:

1. Encourage independence.

the endless back and forth struggle

Fri, 03 May 2013 13:24:56 -0400

the endless back and forth struggle

Psych-Quotes: What if we all had mental disorders?

Thu, 02 May 2013 20:54:45 -0400

Psych-Quotes: What if we all had mental disorders?:

psych-facts:

Aries- Histrionic disorder (pervasive attention-seeking behavior including inappropriate sexual seductiveness and shallow or exaggerated emotions.)

Taurus- Binge disorder (characterized as going through periods of excessive amounts of eating, rest, sex, drinking, other indulgences, and focusing on physical pleasures to cope with stress)

Gemini- Multiple personality disorder (Relying on various separate and unaffiliated personalities to protect oneself.)

Cancer- Borderline personality disorder (characterized by depth and variability of moods extreme “black and white” thinking, instability in self-image, identity and behavior, prone to anxiety and depression)

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27 Things You Had To Deal With As The Only Black Kid In Your Class

Thu, 02 May 2013 17:26:33 -0400

27 Things You Had To Deal With As The Only Black Kid In Your Class:

“You know, I don’t even see you as black.”

"You come to school to learn the rules of society, the ethics and norms that govern your everyday..."

Thu, 02 May 2013 15:41:51 -0400

“You come to school to learn the rules of society, the ethics and norms that govern your everyday life. You don’t come to school for the class, you come to interact with other people; your classmates, who are your equals, and your teachers, who are your superiors. You learn how to form social contacts and maintain, in other words you learn how to be a part of society. The school itself is a microcosm of the entire society.”

- Mr. Mutou

funfrom4chan: To Infinity

Thu, 02 May 2013 15:35:40 -0400

funfrom4chan:

To Infinity

funfrom4chan: and beyond

Thu, 02 May 2013 15:35:39 -0400

funfrom4chan:

and beyond

ge-em: Ahahahah

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 10:15:26 -0400

ge-em:

Ahahahah

As a Future Sailor

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 03:50:00 -0400

I feel like everything I do right now will have no long-term implications. The moment I leave for boot camp I will lose ties to all of my obligations, lose reservation to most social relationships besides immediate family, and concer myself only with creating new ones.

This has been a pattern in my life however, to not bother holding on to new ties and, except those one or two I deem important enough, and just forgetting te rest.

Funny thing though, I feel like if I had a car, it wouldn’t be that way, but I’m pretty sure it would.

I suppose that means I'm not ready?

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 03:47:07 -0400

The pursuit, I find troublesome and tiring so why force something that I’m waiting for a better opportunity and timing for?

people that annoy me

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 16:02:20 -0400

vagabondaesthetics:

People who say no one finds them attractive because the people who are attracted to them are considered ugly. Like fuck your myopic ass. I’m not saying you gotta fuck, date, or even like these people but that’s some self-destructive narrow minded shit. I mean you really shouldn’t base large portions of your self-esteem based off of the opinions of others, but you definitely should put your entire self-worth and esteem on 2-3 people you like staring at.

Funny how the closest thing I have to comfort (not counting my savior of course) is a person...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 15:59:37 -0400

Funny how the closest thing I have to comfort (not counting my savior of course) is a person millions of miles away and is more dependable than so-called friends.

Pops brought home chicken wings at midnight and everyone in my house woke up =P Can’t say he...

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 00:59:26 -0400

Pops brought home chicken wings at midnight and everyone in my house woke up =P
Can’t say he doesn’t feed his family

So I have a couple of video logs I’ve made over the past year but I’m a little hesitant...

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 14:13:56 -0400

So I have a couple of video logs I’ve made over the past year but I’m a little hesitant to upload. They aren’t anything special just me talking about specific things I experience, me on the road, weird encounters at McDonalds, my Navy journey and other random things. Perhaps I’ll upload ‘em one day

Ok....I may actually still be able to go to my Concert!

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 01:50:26 -0400

thedarkchocolatedandy:

My boss gave me a half day on Sunday, I get out of work at 1:00pm, catch a taxi. There’s a bus I can catch leaving at 1:50, get’s there at 5:15 ( three hours from Balt to NYC, they better not be lying).

The concert venue is only a 13 min walk from Penn Station.

This may actually happen.

Ok, I feel better know.

B.A.P.?

Reminder to self

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 01:47:57 -0400

Go to the Philippines!!!

Today was definitely made for me

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 01:47:30 -0400

Today started off with the second day of the LDS General Conference, or GenCon for the cool peeps, and I have to say it was one of the most fulfilling talks I’ve had the pleasure of listening to. Between Elder Perry and President’s Uchtdorf and Monson’s talks, I left church today feeling so much more at peace and resolved in some things I’ve been debating over recently. I know my faith will only get stronger once I leave for the Navy’s boot camp and I’ve come to a decision on marriage. I also trusted and obeyed in God’s will and somehow I ended up at my God-mother’s house today, and, unbeknownst to me, it was her birthday!

I spent the rest of the day there eating great food, with many other wholesome people, they aren’t LDS but strongly grounded in the Christian faith, and funnily enough they supported my decision and were happy to see that I had restored my faith from when my mom passed away.

Unfortunately, the Devil will always be the liar that he says and will try to do anything to impede on our happiness. So, like expected, my arrival at home was greeted with some bad news: my 16 year old brother got a girl pregnant. Oh boy.